I hate you
Yet I smile
I speak in a tight voice
And then you're nice again.
You only care when I do what you want.
I don't want to.
I should make mistakes.
I'll live things the way I want to.
You wouldn't know, you only want
Can't I be Normal?
I want to be
I want to be treated normally
Can't I do what I want
Draw, be creative
You never apologize.
You don't see how
Fragile I am.
I am broken in so many places.
And when you start laughing,
I smile too.
I smile at my revenge.
Laughing at your suffering
You call this sadistic?
I see justice, righteousness.
You hurt me so much
And I know you'll regret it
When I disappear.
I'll be faraway
You won't see me, have anyone
To criticize, point out my faults
And it's not my fault I'm not perfect.
You'll regret it
And I can't wait to see.
Right now I'm feeling really gloomy again. Why are my parents so critical of me it's like I can't do anything right. And I can't. It's not my fault that I'm like an unbridled roller-coaster of impulse and emotions...
Ugh. Same setup here. They want the best for you without realizing their methods are GARBAGE. I need to be successful, I know, but I can be through other ways. It's not like I'm not stressing enough.
Ha hah. I'm kinda adamant when it comes to learning.
I just hate the way my new school wants to do "creative" learning.
It's freaking annoying and I'd prefer to just get the work done. -__-
But yeah life sucks for me with dem standards. : P
I know the feeling... My parents hate art, they say its a waste of time, all they want me to do is study. If I so much as pick up a pencil to draw they're there, looking over my shoulder, scolding, making fun, making me feel like an obsolute waste of space... *sigh* Call it generation gap or whatever, this happens, and my respect for them prevents me from lashing out. Result, I just throw away my sketchbooks and go sit in a corner, head in my hands
Hey don't go being all sad and unhappy. Parents really don't understand this sort of stuff but eventually they'll see that art is just an expression of yourself and it is some kind of knowledge. Besides plenty of people have to use some kind of art in their job right?
But they won't let me :/ It's either becoming an engineer or an accountant. And they're forcing me to be an accountant! Even though I hate that! I'd rather be a game designer... But well, engineering is kinda ok I guess... But they just push art under the carpet like its nothing.. Expression? HAH! They'd rather I become an inhuman studying machine..
You could become an architect or engineer then? It seems more fun opposed to accounting. :/
Those jobs do require some artistic skill. Especially architecture. But still yeah a lot of people don't understand art.
Architectury is banned =_= sketches banned, comics/maga banned, anime banned, i got internet just a month ago. oh did i mention movies banned?
That sucks. That really really sucks. Well at least a lot of mangas, and animes can be found on the internet?
Well one day, you'll be out of the house right? Free to do at least some of the things you want.
I got the parents feel from this but I also thought that it could be read from the perspective of a controlling lover.
I hope you're feeling better.
My parents are pretty critical too
This is sad